Sunday, April 20, 2008

what's really going on?

Hey Beautiful People,

Low energy….is it a sign of something going on in the background? Or is it just low energy?

I ask because for the past 24 hours I have felt a bit like I am treading water. Moving a lot yet getting very little done, tired, bitchy….etc.

At times like these the temptation is to fall securely into the arms of my internal victim, wallow like mad for a while, possibly drag a few unsuspecting souls with me and make sure that before I climb back out, everyone knows just how miserable I am.

Even writing that, feels gross. Nevertheless, it is the truth…sometimes the truth makes us feel gross. And sometimes the truth makes us feel ….empowered.

I know that if I keep those destructive thoughts inside me, as I have so many times in the past, they do just that, destroy me, a little bit at a time. On the other hand, if I shine the light of truth on them, they literally dissolve and another way is revealed. From there I remember that I have a choice; that what I think is up to me and then I can choose empowered thoughts over crap like I have been buying into.

So I guess there is something going on in the background..opportunity. This dip into victim hood, however brief, is yet another opportunity to remember who I really am….a loving, worthy, amazing woman, who sometimes stumbles, and sometimes…..soars!

Peace and Love

Alison

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