Saturday, June 28, 2008

Fired up!

Is there a precise moment when our minds change and limits are lifted? Or is it a cumulative thing? Some people say that transformation happens in an instant. I tend to believe that the instant is allowed when the leg work is done.
Most of my major life changes and decisions I can trace a path to and from. Before the change there are unmistakable things that led up to it and everything that comes after is affected by the new approach to life. Although this path may not be so clear until I am a good ways down the road!
Like right now for instance, there have been a number of things that have led to my rock solid commitment to my health, but the actual transformation happened in an instant. : )
A doctor’s visit, an honest look at my future, the perspective and grace of others in the same boat and a quote from a guy on television, and poof, I was completely committed. My goals felt like they were already accomplished. My will was rock solid, my path was crystal clear, my soul was inspired, in that moment and each one since I have been no-holds-barred falling head over heels in love with myself. Cool eh?
What facilitates this kind of transformation in me is my decision to never stop trying. I may get discouraged, I may appear to have given up completely at times, but I always rise up from a different pile of ashes to try yet another approach. It is the same for anyone who never gives up, eventually we get where we are going, we accomplish what we want and we grow incredibly as human beings because we taught ourselves how to create our life….now that is what I call a WORTH while experience!

Keep on keeping on beautiful people!

Sunday, June 22, 2008

much needed purge....

Maybe it’s getting older, maybe it’s peri-menopause or maybe it’s the Asian meal I had tonight around 9pm, but whatever it is, for the first time in ages, I can’t sleep. The clock is ticking towards 4am and I have a week’s worth of work to do tomorrow to catch up from a terrible cold that had me down for the count this week and I am yawning my damn fool head off, but I can’t seem to get anything going in the bed except frustration. So here I am tapping the keys in hopes that the act of purging myself might bring some peace and some z’s.

No doubt a spring cleaning might just be in order. Not the house though, the head.

I took on a rather scary project last week with the formation of a group designed to create powerful connections, accountability and results in the area of gaining health. This is my way of holding my own feet to the fire. I have probably mentioned somewhere in this blog that the most effective I have ever been is when I am helping others so with that in mind and realizing that I cannot hang onto this extra weight without serious health issues cropping up pretty soon, I started this group.

I am not afraid to speak to a group, I am not afraid to share my work, I am not afraid to assume the leadership role but I am afraid of failure, and that is probably what has me awake this morning. Somewhere in the back of my mind I know this is the best chance I have of making this monumental life change once and for all and I know that my willingness to take it on is not something to take lightly.

So I won’t. Because becoming a person who rigorously honors her commitments to herself means that my life will reflect the very definition of self-worth and from there, anything is possible.

Like the book says “Feel the Fear and Do it Anyway” …. isn't that how anything is accomplished? It's all scary. No matter what we take on, it more often than not scares the crap out of us but if we want change bad enough we do it despite the fear.

And I do....want change...bad!

Blessings Beautiful People...I am off to bed.


Monday, June 16, 2008

The power of me…

I used to consider falling off the wagon as complete failure now I consider it a discovery. Not that my knee jerk reaction isn’t still to bemoan myself as a failure, it certainly is, but it doesn’t stick like it used to. I am learning to live more in the moment than in the failure because I know, truly know, that I am perfect exactly the way I am…in this moment. That is the power of NOW. As anyone who has struggled with addiction or other forms of self-defeating behavior will tell you, the past and the future are scary places. One is used to keep us in a state of self-hatred and the other to keep us in a state of perpetual fear; fear that we will not be strong enough, creative enough or loving enough to overcome the next challenge.

Not so in the NOW. Here we can relax, breathe; see ourselves as the beautiful, capable, astonishing creatures that we are. And we really are! Our spirits soar when we feed them, regardless of our weight, our height, our scars, or any other outside characteristic. My strength and beauty as a human being is only realized when I stay in the present moment. This is the time that the ego is silenced, in this moment I am in between the thoughts, the judgments, the mindless ego chatter. And it feels like floating, completely supported yet entirely suspended, not fearful of the future, or even aware of the past…just PRESENT. It feels like heaven….maybe it is.

Much Love,


p.s. the Gaining Health group starts tomorrow, anyone interested in joining should email me immediately to secure a spot.

Tuesday, June 10, 2008

to our fathers...

My dad is a rock; he has been a consistent example of love, responsibility and grace and the way he loves my mother is nothing short of miraculous. Not because she is hard to love but because after 48 years of marriage, 4 children, countless homes, half a dozen provinces and uncounted challenges, they are still as crazy about each other as if they had just met. No small feat by today’s standards.

I asked my dad last week what he wanted for Father’s Day and all he could come up with was a bush for the garden. When I pushed for more suggestions he honestly couldn’t think of anything else he wanted. To me, that is a definition of a life well lived.

I am so grateful for his beautiful smile, his unending support and belief in me and his unveiled emotion that shows me what is real. I am humbled by his ability to listen, a talent I am still trying to get down.

Most of all this week I want him to know how much I love his kind and graceful heart and how much it has meant to have him fully in my life. I can easily see through the experiences of many friends that what I have with my father is an incredible gift and I want him to know that I do not take it for granted, not for one second.

As we head into whatever blessings and challenges that are coming next, it fills me with emotion to imagine that I am in some ways still his little girl and in others, have become his teacher. I guess that is the perfect example of ‘full circle’. One thing is for certain, our relationship will continue to be a huge source of love in my life, one that I learn from and cherish each day.

To those of you who would not classify your paternal relationship in quite the same way, I hope for you the gifts of acceptance and gratitude this Father’s Day so that you may be able to offer thanks for your father whether you know him, are in communication with him, have a rich relationship with him, or not. No doubt on Father’s Day he will be thinking of you and I hope in some way that will bring you peace.

Love to you Dad,



Sunday, June 1, 2008

Interested in Getting Healthy?

I am looking for a few people who are serious about gaining health to form a support group that uses a system I have developed to reach their health goals. The system includes mind management, physical fitness, food awareness and individual and group support. If you are interested in being a part of this inaugural group drop me an email with your contact information and I will get back to you asap. The key ingredient that you bring to the table is a true and solid commitment to better health. There is a small fee to cover materials. Email me at and put 'group' in the subject line. Feel free to pass this on to anyone you feel might be interested.